listen short stuff.

sometimes i wish i didn't know your smile.
i wish for a see-through heart.
a fistful of magic instead of regret.

sometimes i wish for my mind to go off
somewhere other than the empty war zone
of back and forth.. of ups and downs.

sometimes i wish i didn't need you.
the way people pray for god's empty
promises. the way the sky needs moonlight
to make it feel pretty.

sometimes i wish i were able to hold you when you
woke up crying in the middle of the night. fold you in
the pockets of my faith and say, "we'll be okay."

this won't mean a thing come tomorrow.

that's exactly how i'll make it seem.

::

a beautiful girl can make you feel dizzy. like you've been drinking
jack and coke all morning. she can make you feel high. full of the
single greatest commodity known to man - promise. Promise of a
better day. Promise of a greater hope. Promise of a new tomorrow.
This particular aura can be found in the gait of a beautiful girl. In her
smile and in her soul.. the way she makes every rotten little thing about
life seem like it's going to be okay.

My hands tied up around these words. I wish you'd call.

..but i know that you're out tonight.

however,
if you were even able to call, i'd spill all these thoughts of mine
that are overflowing. ive done so much these past couple of days.
so many fumes.. so i end up a little stupid.. lol. it's worth it.

handful of stencils. terrible migraines.  one incredible person
that makes it all worth while.