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i just have to say something. its been bugging me. umm....isn't it funny how you dont really know how hard youve fallen for someone until the second they tell you that they want nothing to do with you? its sad, i wish i would have known sooner. maybe that way things could have ended up differently. maybe everything happens for a reason....maybe not. who really knows? i just think its really lame that i should be over this already. i woke up this morning and couldn't figure out why this situation was still bothering me. i mean, we didnt leave off on bad terms. i thought we cleared things up for the most part. but it still gets to me. it still sucks to know that ill never play another song for her. write another line. take another deep breath in when she smiles. be able to hold her hand. play with her fingers while shes on the phone and just hope she doesnt notice. that really sucks. it does. and knowing that shes over it. knowing that shes done with "us" is really lame too. because, to me, it sort of means that i cared a whole lot more......unless i dated the best actress in town...