blue and yellow... and a complete waste.

"..you never would have thought in the end, how amazing it feels just to live again." -The Used.

..i couldn't agree more. if it weren't for you, there an extremely high possibility that i wouldn't be here. you know that. but ive told you enough. i wake up every morning just like, "fuck.. i wonder if she'll get it today."

the problem with that is that i am not even sure what im hoping you'll 'get.'

i need to just get it through my head that nothing will ever come of this.
jesus christ, im such a fucking loser. im a liar. an idiot savant without fail. i give up all the time, yet the one thing i should have given up on months ago, is the one person that i can't seem to forget. ..im a fuckin' loser for basically kinda being in love with you for.. idk.. the better part of about seven months?

they say you'll never find what you're looking for if you're actually looking for it.

i wasn't.
i found it.
and it's too good to be true.
so i quit.
..but i'd rather spend my time with you.