"i felt you in my life before i ever thought to"

sometimes all we need is a friend. or.. two. the person i am most honest and open with and completely adore lives on the other side of the world, has her own agenda, her own issues, problems, etc. no time to deal with the things i've got going on. which is completely understandable. take care of yourself before others and make sure you're okay. there's nothing wrong with that at all. the only downside is that i don't know what else to do with myself. when the person i vent to is too busy, mentally or figuratively, where do i go? i made a friend recently. cool girl. we share a great appreciation for music, film, etc. She's like.. the American Jess only not really because well.. Jess is Jess and there's no getting around that. No one will ever replace Jess, that's just not possible whatsoever. i've told jess things that i will never ever in my life say to anyone else again, because i honestly just don't trust others anywhere near as much as i trust her. But i must say it is kinda nice to be able to talk to someone about the things that are on my mind without having to be on a computer... not that i mind, i do love the conversations i have with Jess. They're amongst the best i've ever had. Anyway, i like bumming smokes and just having things in common with someone other than the person i adore most who i will, unfortunately, never meet.. even though if we did by some miracle meet, boy would i be able to die completely and utterly happy. no joke. for now though, i guess one can only hope.