no im not ready for..

a big bad step in that direction.

Hell [cut version]

i dont need company.

...in the company of you. oh but i do, i do. i think i've lost count of how many times i've actually blogged about this, but it still runs through my head. i don't know what to do about it. sometimes i wish we'd never met. it would make things a lot easier, because i wouldn't have to try and come up with how to forget you. it's impossible to get someone to like you, but for a while.. you did like me. well, that's what you said. as to whether i actually completely believe you is a different story.. everything inside of me wants to believe you, but i can't say i really did. yet i do. im a walking contradiction, aren't i? i suppose i just have to learn how to look at things realistically rather than idealistically.

"tell everyone i hate you and i'll blame the above"

..i wish i knew how to do that.

It's Coming!

here's a very short announcement about sainthood. i put it together real quick. but i think it gets the point across.


click link below! :D
HELL