soil, soil

"i feel like a fool so im going to stop troubling you"

this line expresses so much more to me than you'd think.
to me, it's puts emphasis on the fact that you can care about someone dearly,
not in a silly child-like way where it depends on how you're feeling for the day or
what they look like on the outside, but truly care about someone... and they
still seem to take you for granted.

it's like.. sometimes you wonder whether said person even deserves your
attention, affection, or even a second thought.

"why care about someone you don't even know?" they say.

well... why not?

sure i feel like an asshole most of the time, but how can someone who makes me
feel like there's a reason to get up every morning be that bad of a person?

once again, another question i doubt i'll ever know the answer to.

although to be honest, sometimes i feel like they're right.

why do i care so much?
what makes her so different from everyone else?

all anyone ever cares about is how attractive someone is.
and that's a damn shame because if people just set that aside.. even just a little,
life would be much better.

there are those of us who could care less what someone looks like because
it doesn't define what a person is like on the inside, where it matters.

geez, i sound like an informercial or one of those lifetime soap operas.
this is ridiculous.

the point is, i really wish people didn't dwell on the pointless things in life and actually
took the time to realize that those of us around them, truly do care and appreciate
the company.