it never gets easier.

why is it that even though im over her, seeing her just screws with my head? it's not when im around her though. everything is okay then. nothing comes to mind. but when she's gone, it's
almost reminiscent of the first time she said it was over. [because yes, it was more than once]
that same feeling falls into play, of confusion and self hatred...as if i did something wrong even though i know i didn't. Maybe it isn't my fault though. Maybe it's my idiot fuckin' friend telling me
im an idiot. an asshole. a douchebag. basically telling me im a weak minded fuck for "not being over
her, and acting like we're still together." when i did no such thing.

....you think you know people, huh?
:/