where the wild things are.

i am more excited about this than i am about Tim Burton's version of Alice In Wonderland, and i never thought the day i said that would come. Oh and the score is done by Karen O! What else could you ask for?!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2NOkQ4dYVaM

quick Halloween II review of sorts.

basically, it was lame. As much as i love rob zombie, and as starstruck as i was the day i met him [along with Sheri Moon Zombie] ..the film was just not worth it. i was greatly disappointed. phenomenal musician. as far as directing goes though, he's got a long way to go, and sure im not this huge director with hundreds of thousands of dollars like say Tim Burton, but i know a bad movie when i see one and Halloween II was not good. The blood and guts were good. the actors were pretty good, but one of the major things that really bothered me was that the kid who played young Michael in the first one [Daeg Faerch] was not the same kid in Halloween II. Of course the fact that he was no longer a young boy and had gone through puberty and whatnot, is completely understandable as far as having to go with another actor goes, but this did not make up for the fact that the script was difficult to follow...sort of. it didn't make any sense. it was just really messy ...and not in a good way. Not to mention, he killed the hot ladies! D: lol [see: Angela Trimbur and Danielle Harris]

photo savvy perhaps.

just a few of the pictures ive taken over the past year or so. i finally got around to editing and stuff; figured i'd post them here.

film junkie pt. one.

i'm somewhat of a film junkie. that being said, here are just a few of my favourite films of all time. [another list, i know!]

::V For Vendetta::


::Watchmen::


::The Devil's Rejects::



::SLC Punk::

::American History X::



::Speak::


::Monster::


::Inglourious Basterds::

::Itty Bitty Titty Committee::

favourite band lyrics.

yet another list. this one however i find more fun. it's a compilation of lyrics from bands that i simply cannot live without. a number of bands are mentioned more than once, but i couldn't really help myself. i enjoy the songs.

"give up my body in bed all for an empty hotel. wasting words on lower cases and capitals."
Brand New :: The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows.

"skin and bones. im a nervous wreck when it comes to this"
Taking Back Sunday :: A Decade Under The Influence.

"i pledge allegiance to the world, searching for vision not invisibility. i pledge allegiance to the world until the last lock breaks, none of us are free."
Strike Anywhere :: To The World.

"marry me. stay the same. lie to me and try to say you never will."
The Used :: Pieces Mended.

"he's a different color, but we're the same kid. i'll treat him like my brother. he'll treat me like his."
Rancid :: Avenues and Alleyways.

"passers-by were looking at me as if they could erase it."
Placebo :: Meds.

"in our beds, i could hear you breathe with help from cold machines. every hour on the hour, they drew blood."
My Chemical Romance :: This Is The Best Day Ever.

"pull the feeding tube out of the mouth of democracy. televise it starving to death. once buried in the ground, we can all breathe free."
Anti-Flag :: War Sucks, Let's Party!

"i write to remember, 'cause im a million miles away. will you get this letter? jagged pulp sliced in my veins. i write to remember."
At The Drive-In :: One Armed Scissor.

"another night again. another journey without friends. another fight to wish away the loneliness i live."
Smile Empty Soul :: Who I Am.

"we wanted to find love. we wanted success. until nothing was enough. until my middle name was excess."
PJ Harvey :: We Float.

"tear it out of these open pages. women and kids of all ages. millions of men with blank faces. italicized lies. headlines. bold type."
Straylight Run :: Hands In The Sky (Big Shot).

"i cant say i blame you, but i wish that i could. im sick of writing every song about you."
Taking back Sunday :: Head Club.

"i'll feel guilty thinking you hate me and i will cry, but i will get by."
A Little Less So :: Old Friend.

"they can't tear you apart. they can't take it away now. this is your time..this is your life and.. keep on livin'!"
Le Tigre :: Keep on Livin'.

"ive become content with this life that i lead where i drink too much and dont believe in much of anything."
Straylight Run :: It's For The Best.

"spinning hubcaps set the tempo for the music of the broken window."
Thursday :: Understanding In a Carcrash.

"drag my corpse through the cities i never got to visit."
Boys Night Out :: I Got Punched In the Nose for Sticking my Face In Other People's Business.

"i know you plan out everything that you want to say. i wish that we didn't have to go about things this way."
Tegan and Sara :: I Bet It Stung.

"i see a blank notebook page. it's my life and there's nothing i can think to write."
Saosin :: They Perched on Their Stilts Pointing and Daring Me To Break Custom.

"here's a presnet to let you know i still exist. i hope the next boy that you kiss has something terribly contagious on his lips."
Brand New :: Jude Law and The Semester Abroad

"if i could have one wish, i sure with that i had never grown up."
Tegan and Sara :: More For Me.

homophobia.

so most of the time, when i come across homophobic douche bags i do my best to just ignore them. however today, i signed onto blogtv because Michelle [anythingsarcastic] was live....she makes me smile. :) the first time she was online it was all cool, lots of people online. the second time around wasn't so great. why? because of stupid ass comments like this:



now...let's just take a quick minute to partially dissect this, yeah?
first off, the grammar is unbelievably terrible. now i'm not saying that i am like lord of all grammar, but this is just bloody terrible. Also, why are "kike" and "dyke" spelled with a period after the first letter? ...idiot. oh and use of the N' word...no. just, just no. that's bad! D:

anyway, enough on the worthless grammar, one thing that really, REALLY bothered me was the fact that this person referred to her as 'inbred' and 'slutty'. I understand that not everyone is going to agree with views on homosexuality for whatever reason, but do you honestly have to run around insulting people to get off? I mean, Michelle is an incredible, smart, beautiful woman. Why would anyone want to insult her?

look at her, she's amazing.


how could you ever be mean to michelle?!

anyway, these ignorant comments i came across today have inspired a youtube video. so i'll post that within the next couple days or so, but soon.


oh, and click the picture below and subscribe. trust me, it's worth it!

for the taking.

so you know when you're with someone, there's something special you share between just the two of you. well, once said relationship is over, is that special something theirs for the taking? do they have the right to take that and share that with someone else? even if it's something simple, like say...the song you first kissed to? or a joke of some sort? anything really, is that okay, or am i vindicated in saying it's an asshole thing to do? because if we're all just sharing our special moments, then welcome everyone! welcome to my self-loathing.

rules for going to a bar/strip club.

you should have the following on you if you are going to a bar that is open from dusk til dawn... if not, there will be dire consequences.:

1. have a gun.
2. have holy water.
3. have a priest with you.
..or former priest.
[note: if priest is unavailable, carry a bible]
4. have a number of flashlights.
5. bring lots of lighters.
6. have a cross on you at all times. a big cross.
8. have knives; know how to sharped wooden objects.
9. make sure your friends have the above as well.

if you don't have any of the above you will die!
because those people will turn into vampires
and suck the fuckin' life out of you!..until you "come back to life and do
the same to someone else, of course.

christ, i love this film haha. it makes me laugh.

it never gets easier.

why is it that even though im over her, seeing her just screws with my head? it's not when im around her though. everything is okay then. nothing comes to mind. but when she's gone, it's
almost reminiscent of the first time she said it was over. [because yes, it was more than once]
that same feeling falls into play, of confusion and self hatred...as if i did something wrong even though i know i didn't. Maybe it isn't my fault though. Maybe it's my idiot fuckin' friend telling me
im an idiot. an asshole. a douchebag. basically telling me im a weak minded fuck for "not being over
her, and acting like we're still together." when i did no such thing.

....you think you know people, huh?
:/

just a b-side.

ah, okay. so i did a bit of writing in between Gangland commercials, sips of tea and listening to Deftones. that being said, it's really really shitty, but here goes this:

once silent thoughts.
now screaming through my head.
buried deep, heartstrings come
undone.

maybe i do want to marry you.
or maybe it's just one big mistake.

maybe i want to bring you back
up when you're down.

maybe i do want to marry you.
or maybe this is all nonsense.

sick of being bored. are you
just another score?

something says you're the only
one that i adore.




lets hope i post something totes better
for next time. i dont like this. but im
just a tad bit addicted to blogging... O_o

schedules suck.

so my school schedule for Junior year is.....pretty lame. im bummed, because as of now i didn't get into the film class i wanted. :/ that was the one class i was actually excited about. the schedule isn't like final yet, i get my final one the day i start school, so hopefully it'll be better because i think something is screwed up, but idk. my plan is too talk to my counselor and complain like there's no tomorrow to see if i can get it. ..she's quite nice, im sure she'll find some way to get me in. :) if not, then this school year is going to be even more terrible. anyway, my schedule is as follows:

hour 1: AP English. ...hopefully this class is worthwhile.
hour 2: Phys Ed. ...is fun, but i think i have an asshole teacher.
hour 3: Spanish 3. ...is unbelievably easy.
hour 4: Lunch. ...sucks.
hour 5: Lunch? ...wtf?! i dont want two lunches! i want film class. D:
hour 6: Earth Science. ....fuck science. :/
hour 7: AP American History. ...ive got the best teacher :D
hour 8: Advanced Algebra. ...meh, i dont like math. :|


so....im not exactly happy with it, but whatevs. i guess i just have to deal with it as best i can.

modern girl.

so i'm not quite sure what it is about this song that just brings her to mind. i seriously have no idea, but whatever it is, it's just...idk. it's different. i mean...ahh...idk. great song. great band. great girl. :)


My baby loves me, I'm so happy
Happy makes me a modern girl
Took my money and bought a TV
TV brings me closer to the world

My whole life
Looked like a picture of a sunny day
My whole life
Was like a picture of a sunny day

My baby loves me, I'm so hungry
Hunger makes me a modern girl
Took my money and bought a donut
The hole's the size of this entire world

My whole life
Was like a picture of a sunny day
My whole life
Looked like a picture of a sunny day

My baby loves me, I'm so angry
Anger makes me a modern girl
Took my money, I couldn't buy nothin'
I'm sick of this brave new world

My whole life
Was like a picture of a sunny day
My whole life
Looked like a picture of a sunny day
My whole life
Was like a picture of a sunny day
My whole life
Was like a picture of a sunny day.

a bright future?

so despite the previous blog in which i stated i had nothing to blog about, while soaking my head in bloody cold water due to the ridiculous heat in which i live, i realized that i absolutely cannot validate the pointless existence i put myself though every day. some days it doesn't even come to mind. some days it doesn't bother me whatsoever, but for the most part, it really bugs me. it's not that im being defeatist. it's just tough not to give up. Like, i have nothing to offer anyone. i mean, the music i write, isn't worth shit. the videos i make are quite pointless, directing is going to get me nowhere. the girl i seriously absolutely love will never ever be with me. ever....because as far as distance becoming a chore goes.....distance would be like a horrid nightmare. :/ ..so even just assuming anything would ever work out is nothing more than wishful thinking. the only thing i'm somewhat good at is writing. however, the thought of being an English teacher the rest of my life.. or just working a nine-to-five job scares the living shit out of me. if there's one thing i'd hate most is to work a nine-to-five job. sure, that's good for some people, but there's no way im going to settle for that. idk. i just hate living in this confusion.

skips on the record.

such a phenomenal song by at the drive-in....and it has absolutely nothing to do with this blog. i just really like the song. i really like the title. here are two shitty photos of rick and my old tegan and sara shoes ...because i wanted to post a blog, but had nothing in mind.
sooo...here's this. :)

zombie rick?

beat up t&s kicks.

s-k.

this song is definitely one of the best songs ive listened to in a while.

sleater-kinney.
entertain:

the perfect ending.

is there ever such thing as a perfect ending to a life?

has someone ever honestly accomplished every single
goal they set for themselves before death?

every time ive seen a life end, it has never seemed that way whatsoever.

tragedy.
despair.

two words that seem to be masked by one.

freedom.

one person's views forced upon someone else, even if it is something like freedom, is not right.

that being said, you cannot put a price on someone's life.

i dont believe the united states cares about it's citizens. the way i see it, the one thing this country cares about more than anything else is money.

i have this fear. if i am truly scared of one thing more than anything else, it is this:
losing my sister.

ive grown up in a military family.
and i dont want a single part of it.

i dont want to wake up one morning and go from this:to this: but is it worth it?

are the deaths of hundreds of thousands of people, soldiers and civilians alike, worth it?

does it truly do anyone any justice?

i suppose no one will ever really have an answer.

but we know who's to blame.

distance.

is it odd how you can be thousands of miles away from someone, yet feel like they're the most important thing that ever happened to you?

how one person can make you feel incredibly secure without even trying.

how everything that's going wrong seems to just go away with the mere sentence or two they send your way.

yet no matter how much you tell yourself not to hold on to the idea of them being around, because you know they aren't going to be, you can't help it.

sometimes letting go of that idea is the best thing you could ever do, but the act of doing so is terrifying.

no two people ever make you feel the same way.

and the thought of never experiencing that feeling again is a very scary thing.

a thought that is avoided many a time in my head.

change.

this country needs more than a building right now.
it needs more than a president.
it needs hope.

real and positive change has never come from a
president or a prime minister.
it has always come from the people.

as a group of people we need to build a community
where everyone can be themselves.

a community where everyone will respect
one another, support one another and take
care of one another regardless of our
differences.

because that, my friends, is what punk rock
is all about.